I`ve been laptop less for the past week and I still have another week to go until I receive my new adaptor.

I can`t believe how much I`m dependant to my laptop, it’s actually very frightening. There are other computers at home that I can use but somehow I can`t work with them. It`s either the location, the keyboard or something else that bothers me.

This is my absolute nightmare; my whole life is on hold. I don’t have my contacts, my reservation system for my travel business. I can`t seem to be able to concentrate to write working with someone else`s computer. Even writing these few sentences is a challenge for me, even though I have the outline on paper.

Is it wise to be dependant to one computer? What if it was stolen? It’s so easy to save everything on the computer but I’m not sure if it’s a wise thing anymore. Although I have all my information backed up I’m sure re-entry of the information would be very painful.

To make it short and put myself out of this misery, this is why I`m not posting, and I`ll be back as soon as I have My Precious up and running.

Until then,

Cassie at cassiegermsheid.com tagged me on Motherhood lessons, which was tagged to her originally by Tishia at momstalknetwork.com
This is a wonderful topic to play tag. My mom is my mentor in motherhood. She was kind and firm. She wouldn’t spoil us, or give in and at the same time we were content and loved. She wasn’t some one you mess with, when she said something, you would listen. Her eyes, she would give us The Look. I wanted to die and not get that look. Even though she is very firm and doesn’t let you to get away with anything, all the children, including my kids, love them. I remember my cousins were crazy about my mom, they would anything for her, that normally wouldn’t do for their moms.

She also taught us sense of responsibility at home and towards each other. As long as I can remember, setting the dinner table and cleaning up after that was our job. Our main course of the day was lunch, so dinner was leftover or some simple food like sandwich or salad. It was our responsibility to put food on table for night. We had lots of fun making those sandwiches; we also made a huge mess in her kitchen. But she wouldn’t mind. Read the rest of this entry »

I’m in wonder how much a day or two can make a difference. Since my son turned four, I see changes in him, for the better. I can see that he talks more, uses language instead of nagging or moving his arms

I have to say today was not our best day, he broke his favourite birthday gift. Well I should have expect it, giving an active boy a foam pirate ship!!

Getting back to the point, I can see changes in him. The other day he explained to his sister how to play with play dough. He didn’t grab the toy from her, and explained that he took it to show her how to use it, and will give it back soon. He cleaned up her room after she emptied a toy box. Oh and unbelievable, he was talking in his normal voice not screaming. The two of them are having more conversations and play more together now that one is four and the other two.

I guess what I want to say, is that it gets better. I remember a year ago, I couldn’t see the light at end of the tunnel and when other moms would tell me it’ll get better; I would show a happy face but wouldn’t believe them.

Now I have first hand experience, and just had to tell other moms like me, that it’s true you may not feel it now but it’ll get easier.

Until later,

I have to say I’ve been kind of feeling down today, questioning every single moments of my life. All related to me being very tired. I needed some one to tell me “it’s alright, everything is fine and your kids are just being kids, there is nothing wrong with them”

Well I didn’t have anyone to say that to me, or they said it and I didn’t hear it between the voices and screams of my children. The kids didn’t help either which I kind of know why. Most of the time when I’m not feeling right they will act up

Finally after a long day of all kinds of a 4 year old toddler “unbearable” behaviour and tantrums of my two year old we were at the table and the kids were painting with watercolor. Lately the craft of choice is watercolor. The only down side to watercolor is that all the surroundings of craft table is dotted with black watercolor and my daughter manages to spill some water every time.

They were busy with their painting and I could finally work on my computer, when my daughter decided to cry again. I just had it for the day, I saw the watercolor and paper in front of me and I just started painting blocks of color one after another. There was nothing I could do for my daughter except ignore the nagging and crying, she’s been on a nagging diet for the whole day. Read the rest of this entry »

Tags: destressing, hobby, mom, relaxing, watercolor

The other night we were at a dinner party, where there were other kids almost the same age and younger. When we are with other kids I always make sure my kids are fare, take turns and share. Well last night I questioned myself if I’m over doing this.

The problem was that because I was always getting in the middle to keep peace somehow other parents and kids thought that my son was very aggressive and mid behaved. While he was doing the same as other kids and was just an active 3 year old.

I felt so bad; I felt that somehow I’m creating something that’s not there. Other parents didn’t care how their kids were doing, even ignoring when seeing they were out of line and aggressive.  I’m thinking of backing up a little and see how it goes. Although I’m sure I won’t be completely indifferent and will step in when it’s needed.

Do you feel the same? I’ll be happy to read your stories or comments.

Until later,